Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Being kind

Today I remind myself to be kind.

To myself

I am learning to detach a bit.
To look at what I would tell myself as an observer.

I would say,

take it easy
stop stressing
stop the mind clutter
you deserve a rest
your family deserves a happy you

and so do you.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Daddy and me

This is a photo of me and my dad taken 26 years ago.
We were in the game reserve and like ignorant Europeans, we climbed out of the car for a photo.
My dad told me that we were standing by the lion's den.

I remember feeling so safe because my dad was with me.
No lion would come to get me.

Because I had the bravest and strongest man in the world protecting me.

To this day, I love my dad like I did that day.
He is there for me no matter what.
I love him unconditionally.

He is still my hero.

This is my Annie with her dad.
I see the same adoration in her eyes.

She knows that her dad is the bravest and strongest man in the world.

He will always protect her.

I hope that one day she will also tell a story like mine.


Is it just me, or is my Annie looking more and more like my brother?
Family resemblances are there to remind us of our connection to each other.

I wonder who my little boy will look like.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

What's the time?

This is what I see in my kitchen every morning.
It always says that it's one o'clock.
The clock stopped when I had the ectopic pregnancy that ruptured.
I think it's to remind me to slow down.

We are a society that has a disease.
We are obsessed with doing.
Always hurrying to the next thing that must be done.
We struggle to just be.

I am probably one of the most guilty ones.
With this baby coming, I am constantly obsessing about what must still be done.
The cot.
The clothes.
The cleaning.
Obsessing that due to my physical inability to do all these things, they can't all be done.

But in all this obsession, I forget the impact it has on my health.
My peace of mind.
My family.
My baby.

My challenge, every day, is to just be.
Not do.
But, be.

When I get that right, I think the clock will work again.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

This too shall pass

I walked out this morning to what was predicted to be a 35 degree day, with a real danger of fire.
This is what the sky looks like at the moment.

There is nothing like Melbourne weather to remind me that things change all the time.

Nothing is certain.
Nothing is constant.

I was thrilled to be running in the rain after the extreme heat we have been experiencing.
And I am enjoying it as much as I can.

Because this, too, shall pass.
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